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ribs by lorde’s one of my fave songs to play. it is a song about having that nostalgic feeling, wanting to be a kid again, and the fear of getting old. all in one song. “i’ve never felt more alone, it feels so scary getting old” — growing up, i wanted to grow up so bad, didn’t we all want that? now, i am afraid to be a senior, not just because i am afraid of the new place and environment i have to face, but also the fact that i have to leave the people and things i thought will stay forever in my life. now that i am thinking about it, the thought of having to transfer in another school, my friends having their own choices of school, going on with our own lives, and not stick together anymore like what we used to before, and having to leave each other behind, never crossed my mind. those thoughts never linger. but now that i am here, we are all here, in the now, i have to face them and not make any regrets anymore. may this video gives you comfort. may the feelings of fear of the future and the fondness of the past mix up, just like how it did to me. and lastly, may we enjoy what we have right now while we are in the now. appreciate it. live in it. seize it. i hope you enjoy this. thank you. sat, july 20 2024