Ain't done paying

Listen to Ain't done paying by MrNightQc on #SoundCloud https://on.soundcloud.com/AY35vh2ZLmumQ4VaZk #country #countrymusic #ballad #folkmusic [Intro] (Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh) [Verse 1] I'm thirty-eight in a one-room place Just a bed, a chair, and a sink Got a window that looks at a brick wall And too much time to think No truck in the lot, no keys on the table No road left to disappear down Just me and the sound Of this old fridge kicking on [Verse 2] I used to have more than this I used to have people call Now everything I own feels like it belonged to somebody else I keep my boots by the door Like I got somewhere to be But most days I just sit here trying not to think about me [Chorus] I've been trying to stand up with what I got left Some nights it feels like I ain't much more than a mess Lord, I need a little mercy for the shape I'm in I lost damn near everything and I still ain't done paying for it If there's still a road back for a man like me Send a little light down to this one-room dark I'm still breathing, but barely some nights Lord, save me For what comes alive when it gets quiet [Verse 3] My phone don't ring much unless it's another bill My mama still checks on me, asks if I'm eating for real I tell her, "Yeah, I'm alright," same lie I always used Didn't tell her I sold the last thing I had that wasn't already gone I had loved ones, I had a life to carry right Now I got two shirts hanging up in a past that won't shut up at night I ain't mad at the world, most days I'm mad at me 'Cause I know every bad turn started with something I chose to be [Chorus] I've been trying to hold on to what's still true But it gets hard when the man in the mirror looks like someone you outlived Lord, I need a little mercy for the shape I'm in I lost damn near everything and I still ain't done paying for it If there's still a road back for a man like me Send a little light down to this one-room dark I'm still breathing, but barely some nights Lord, save me For what comes alive when it gets quiet [Bridge] I don't need a miracle, just one decent day One where I don't feel like I threw my whole life away If I break, let it happen, if I crawl, let it show Ain't nobody here to see it anyway Maybe that's why it all comes out slow [Chorus] Lord, I need a little mercy for the shape I'm in I got nothing left to hide behind, nothing left to blame but me If there's still a door open for a soul like mine Send a little light down to this one-room dark I'm still breathing and that's all I got tonight Lord, save me Lord, save me Before I disappear in this silence [Outro] One room, no car, no noise Just me Trying to make it to the morning