Alone: a tutorial of peace.

Alone. Some people say I’ve been thinking too much. Like every time I shut my eyes there’s some new worry. It’s a cascade of thoughts that nobody wants and it’s all served up for me. But I’ve always known my mind was different. I’ve been thinking things most don’t want to be thinking about. Having urges. Making moves. Looking back in anger. The whole 9 yards. But here I am again stuck in the same thoughts I knew I always wanted to be tangled with.  some people need other people for that. They’re stable enough to just let everyone around them open their mind. But I know I’m not there yet. I’m still just trying to figure my own s**t out. Some may say that makes me lonely. Maybe they’re right. But right now? Space is my love language. Cause I know I got people. I feel grateful every day for that. But also that what I really need? I can’t get from anybody else. It’s starts, and ends, with me. People say they have dreams. I’m not separate from them. But overtime, they forget about who they are. Because in truth, it’s easier to live for someone else. And in the end, we get what we settle for. No matter how small. And if you’re ever wondering what you settle for? All you gotta do is ask: What’s the thing that bothers you when you’re alone?