Bedtime Sirens

[Verse 1] Boots in the dust, sky turning gray Orders echo, we don’t get to say Names on my lips I can’t forget Faces I see when I try to rest Smoke in my lungs, ringing in ears Counting the seconds, drowning in fear I made it home, that’s what they say But part of me never got away ⸻ [Pre-Chorus] They thank me for the things I’ve done But I don’t feel like anyone ⸻ [Chorus] I’m still there, I never left In every breath, in every step Sirens screaming in my head Even when I’m in my bed Lights go out, I hear the sound Feel the ground shake all around You say I’m safe, but I can’t tell I made it home… but not myself ⸻ [Verse 2] Crowded rooms but I feel alone Every face just turns to stone Fireworks light the summer sky I flinch like bullets passing by I try to sleep, I try to pray But all the dark won’t fade away I see their hands, I hear their cries They follow me behind my eyes ⸻ [Pre-Chorus] They say “just let the past be gone” But it keeps holding on ⸻ [Chorus] I’m still there, I never left In every breath, in every step Sirens screaming in my head Even when I’m in my bed Lights go out, I hear the sound Feel the ground shake all around You say I’m safe, but I can’t tell I made it home… but not myself ⸻ [Bridge] If I could trade these memories For one more night of quiet sleep If I could lay this armor down Without the fear of coming out ⸻ [Final Chorus] I’m still there, I can’t come back Lost somewhere between the cracks Call my name, I won’t respond Half of me is still at war