tv show: The Queen's Gambit (Netflix)
song: "This is me trying" - Taylor Swift remix by Jean Nascimento https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ATBYsRAEOMQ&list=PLpx5LGnROcdMhggKzd9dtXf8rQxVCpeEL&index=3
In a interview, they said that the meaning of the song is about "accepting fault for relationship issues and making an effort to repair them. Fear, alcohol, and a sense of failure and isolation complicate the healing process, but she takes the first step by having the humility to admit things are difficult and uncertain."