Black SkyHome

I loved you loud, couldn’t lower my tone Chest full of war, but I wanted home Heart got cracked, still I reached, still I prayed Pain came sharp, but I stayed, but I stayed Words say love, but the walk don’t match Mouth say peace, but the door stay latched You say I’m wrong, but the fruit talk back How I think different when the proof stack-stack? I was loud, I was hurt, I was scared, I was stressed Tried to speak calm with a storm in my chest Held you down when the whole sky black Then I broke once, and you stepped way back Space got cold, space got sharp Space felt aimed straight at my heart You called it healing, I called it dark Love don’t hide when the pain leave marks Lo ira ra, ki Atah imadi Gam ba’laylah, Atah shomer oti Hashivah li sason yishecha Lev tahor bara li, Elohai Ani osev, ani noshem Adonai ro’i, ani lo eshaver Im zeh mimcha, ten li shalom Im lo, Elohai, shlach oti l’home Christmas lights, cold room, truth bent Name got stained, whole heart spent One call could’ve made walls cave in But I chose Christ, wouldn’t move in sin Had receipts, had claims, had fire Could’ve struck back, took it higher Vengeance ain’t mine, so I killed that wire Love held the blade when my soul got tired I know I vent, I know I get raw Trained under pressure, raised through war Volume ain’t proof that the love ain’t pure I was begging for peace through a locked-up door Fifty-seven calls through the haze, through the glass Trying to reach you while the moments passed I cleaned up storms, still got cast Like my breakdown erased my past Lo ira ra, ki Atah imadi Gam ba’laylah, Atah shomer oti Hashivah li sason yishecha Lev tahor bara li, Elohai Ani osev, ani noshem Adonai ro’i, ani lo eshaver Im zeh mimcha, ten li shalom Im lo, Elohai, shlach oti l’home You said truth lived there eight years straight But truth don’t run when correction takes place Truth don’t fold when the Word gets weight Fruit shows clear when the roots ain’t fake False gods fall when the real Light hit False doctrine crack when the roots get split Wanted Christ in the house, not a holy-fit script Not a ring with a vow where the actions quit I wanted covenant, not cold distance Not fake peace with a hard resistance Not blame on me with selective witness Both hearts bleed, both need repentance I still love you, that’s the knife twist Still pray your soul finds the Lord in this Still wish our home found the Rock, not mist But love needs fruit, not a ghost-text kiss Lo ira ra, ki Atah imadi Gam ba’se’arah, Atah machzik oti Hashivah li sason yishecha Lev tahor bara li, Elohai Ani osev, ani noshem Adonai ro’i, ani lo eshaver Im zeh mimcha, ten lanu shalom Im lo, Elohai, kach oti l’home You say, “Think different,” but I need facts Actions preach louder than speech, that’s facts Every time I break, you step back How I trust love when it moves like that? I won’t chase doors that stay locked tight Won’t curse your name in the dead of night Take my tears where the altar light Let God judge truth, let Christ make right Church in the morning, sand by noon Rod in the water while the Spirit move Bible open, heart still bruised Healing from love that got misused Not running to flesh, not chasing skin Not drowning heartbreak in another sin If love comes next, let God walk in Holy heart, clean hands, soft grin Lo ira ra, ki Atah imadi Gam ba’laylah, Atah shomer oti Hashivah li sason yishecha Lev tahor bara li, Elohai Ani osev, ani noshem Adonai ro’i, ani lo eshaver Im zeh mimcha, ten lanu shalom Im lo, Elohai, ani chozer l’home I loved you loud, now I heal more quiet No more war, no more riot If you come back changed, God will guide it If not, I bless you, won’t fight it I loved you loud, couldn’t lower my tone Chest full of war, but I wanted home Heart got cracked, still I reached, still I prayed Pain came sharp, but I stayed, but I stayed Lo ira ra, ki Atah imadi Gam ba’dema’ot, Atah shomer oti Hashivah li sason yishecha Lev tahor bara li, Elohai Ani osev, ani noshem Adonai ro’i, ani lo eshaver Im zeh mimcha, ten li shalom Im lo, Elohai, ani chozer l’home Words say love, but the walk don’t match Mouth say peace, but the door stay latched You say I’m wrong, but the fruit talk back I release control, let the old me crack