Deathwish

Track four from Spring Never Comes Links: https://open.spotify.com/artist/7j8XINhxkD7WS4efrPxbhm https://soundcloud.com/lilxtraatl https://twitter.com/LilXtraATL https://www.instagram.com/lilxtraatl Lyrics: Lay In bed all day I’m broken like my empty promises Once upon a long long time ago I used to have these dreams I thought One day I’d find my purpose Over time I’ve realized I’m not Conquering the things I fear Capable of of breaking through Lost the things I once held dear I don’t know what the fuck to do Left beliefs that once defined me My best days are long behind me Half the time I’m breathing In I’m dreaming of the day I finally stop Check my feelings at the door I don’t know what I’m fighting for I used to pray things would change But now I’m well aware they’re not I used to say Everything will be alright But it never will be So I stay in my bed I hate when you call And say you should come out tonight I just bought an ounce I’m gonna smoke it instead Yeah yeah Stop fucking telling me I’m fine I hate the way you keep your cool I’m aware you’re always right Go on and play me for the fool Take the blood out of my veins Go on do your worst to me I wouldn’t wish this type of pain On my own worst enemy Lay in bed but never sleep I tried to fight but I’m too weak And Every time I try to speak I end up drunk and sobbing on the floor Heard you’re doing better now It makes it worse I don’t know how The world keeps turning I can’t breath I just can’t do this anymore I used to pray that everything would be alright But nothing could hear me Cause there’s nothing... Nothing at all I used to say Everything will be alright But it never will be So I just stay in my bed And I hate when you call And say you should come out tonight I just bought an ounce I'm gonna smoke it instead I used to pray that Everything would be alright But it never will be So I stay in my bed I won’t take your call I’m not going out tonight I’ll never be alright I wish I was dead I used to think that everything would be alright But it never will be I wish I was dead