Everyone I've loved Learnt Your Name

Lyrics:- It'll be soon 365 days complete Of you being in my mind And my heart yearning. I'm scared what if I ended up looking like Those heartbroken one sided lovers in comment section. I just wondered why would I choose still you Even after knowing it would end up like this If I could go back in time. I don't think that now I'll ever see you again. Now I can't remember people's faces neither voice But I exactly remember what you said to me that day. I wasn't supposed to fall in love like this, I am too young. Some days I could barely manage myself From not collapsing in the pain And something I could barely breathe, Sometimes my eyes hurts crying And I don't know for what. I shouldn't feel this right But guess love in my youth was supposed to look like this. Soon in few months our life will change And of course it's already diverged, You'll grow in your life with new environment That doesn't feel such temporary And I will meet new people with my red eyes. ​ I don't know how much more time will it take to not hurt, How much more nights will I cry and spend days. Was it ever nothing to you, Was it so easy for you to joke around, To act like stone, Didn't your heart flinched by the taught That I was hurting because of your ignorant actions? ​ Now I feel more than memories, I hold fears; More than hope my eyes have felt tears. Was I mere distraction or attraction to you? But for me you were love, As a child grew up loving love stories with happy ending, I never taught of me stuck into this phase, I never imagined I'd be hurt for just loving. ​ I expect nothing, I just hope you'd always smile like that Pinching your eyes and slightly tilting the head as you always do, I hope your shoulder's never hurt carrying responsibilities And while laughing the way you shook your shoulder. I love you, I love you a lot. I told about you to my mom And everyone I've loved has learnt your name. I hope you'd be happy, Also your sweet sisters and your parents Who raised you in such gentle man That I saw in you.