ghost

i never changed the lightbulb in my sister's room after i moved in despite its unsightly color and unearthly flickering. i didn't get rid of her clothes in the drawers or her bags hung on the door, even though it made the room feel suffocating. instead, i kept it all, unable to let it go and clean out the room my sister lived in just to make space for my own things. i wrote this song as i was getting ready to move into my college dorm, relieved that i could make a museum out of my sister's room and place myself elsewhere but realizing that i was moving on to a place where she would never go. we always shared a room before and i got so used to the sound of her breathing as i went to sleep. i wrote this feeling that i would always be stuck between wanting to hold on and let go but never being able to do either. 'ghost' releasing 9/24 first single off 'backseat' ep releasing 11/12