Halfway Gone

Lyrics: Years of talking to a wall Years of crying in the sink Begging you to hear me out While you barely seemed to think I carried every damn thing The house, the hurt, the weight You’d swear that you would do better Then go right back the next day I wore myself to nothing Trying to save what you ignored You got comfortable watching me Bleed love onto the floor Then somebody else saw value In the parts you overlooked And suddenly you noticed The distance in my looks Funny how my leaving Finally made you move Funny how the bare minimum Looks like a breakthrough to you Now you’re opening doors Calling me beautiful first Helping with the damage After years of making it worse Now you’re planning dates Now you’re listening when I speak Now you hold me like I matter Now you finally see me And I hate how badly I still wanted this from you After years of screaming for it Now you’re doing what I begged you to It took another man’s attention To light a fire under you Now suddenly you’re terrified Of losing what you used Now you fold the laundry Now you help with every meal Now you touch me gently Now you ask me how I feel Part of me feels angry Part of me feels loved Part of me keeps wondering Why I wasn’t enough before this was Now you’re buying flowers Kissing every scar you missed Acting like the man I needed Back when I was begging for this Now you’re pulling your weight Now you’re trying every day And I’m standing in the middle Of relief and heartbreak Because this version of you Could’ve saved us years ago If you had cared enough Before I let somebody else get close I don’t know if this is love Or fear of losing control I don’t know if you changed for me Or because another hand touched your soul But i know, you finally see me And that’s the cruelest part You waited until I was halfway gone To start protecting my heart Now you treat me like a queen Like I hung the moon above After years of making me fight For scraps of basic love And I don’t know whether to cry Or finally let myself heal Because everything I wanted from you Is suddenly real But somewhere deep inside me There’s still this quiet grief For the woman who begged for years Just to get loved properly