Here and Now

Entry 1 Is it right now, or earlier? It’s easy to tell, because I have anxiety. I’m shedding the uncomfortability to survive. Of course, there is pain. But I’m recovering. Either way, compliments have made me feel great, like my mother telling me I’m a phenomenal son. I am on the path to the police academy. I have fear about some things, and that’s one of them. I keep my strength and get stronger every day. I have faith, and I’m seeking a community. Not having one brings about loneliness. Battles after battles. Still, I am chasing a dream, fame. Still, I am chasing a dream, the police force. I am an achiever seeker. Entry 2 Currently, during my transition period, I am getting help from professionals to find my dream job as I work towards my dream career. This is part of God’s plan. To get here, he wanted to make sacrifices, and I did what I had to do with nothing to show for it yet. To get better, I have to let go and know that there are problems that I have to live with and problems I can’t fix. I am committed to everything that I do. So, that makes it easier. I have confidence in knowing this. That is security for me, which makes me feel safe. This leads to a better brotherhood with my future brother-in-arms. All this requires manifestation. Entry 3 Many things are happening right now. I’m keeping order and serving justice in the police force. I’m in the hall of fame. I am a father. I am receiving the next stage of today’s compliments, like when someone said, “You’re going to be a great dad!” I have independence. I share interests with my partner. I am a freedom fighter. I have accomplished the goals that I set at 27. Entry 4 Accomplished everything I set out to.