How to Apologize?

To our Friend Ciecie, We really sorry we couldn’t be there for your wedding. we know that day was important, and we understand why you might feel hurt. we should have handled it better. We tried reaching out, but we realize that doesn’t fix it. We just want you to know we care about you, and we're sorry. Lyrics: I traced your name in the static on my phone Three dots blinking like a pulse I don’t own You wore forever like a dress in July I wore excuses I could never justify I missed the moment where your hands turned gold Where all your “somedays” finally took hold Now every word I try just falls apart Like cheap confetti from a rented heart I thought “I’m sorry” could carry the weight But it just echoes, arrives too late You don’t say anything, and that says it all A quiet sharper than a curtain call I’m shouting into a locked-out room Where your silence blooms I couldn’t be there, I know, I know But does it mean I let you go? You built a life I couldn’t see Now there’s no space left for me Your wedding dress like a ghost in my head Dancing with someone where I should’ve been instead I see the pictures I was never in A perfect story I can’t step within You said forever, I heard “someday soon” I lost the rhythm, came in too late to the tune Now every memory bends out of shape A film I rewind but can’t escape I tried to call but I lost my nerve Guess absence is what I deserve You don’t say anything, and that says it all A quiet sharper than a curtain call I’m shouting into a locked-out room Where your silence blooms I couldn’t be there, I know, I know But does it mean I let you go? You built a life I couldn’t see Now there’s no space left for me I swear I had a reason— No, that’s a lie, I just had fear And fear doesn’t look good in photographs Does it? You cut me out in clean straight lines No jagged edge, no warning signs Just empty space where I exist Like I was something you dismissed Say it louder in your silence Say it clearer with the void Every word you’re not replying Leaves another nerve destroyed You don’t say anything, and that says it all A quiet sharper than a curtain call I’m screaming through a closing door But you don’t hear me anymore I couldn’t be there, I know, I know But I never meant to let you go If “sorry” dies before it lands Then I’ll just bleed it through my hands If I stood outside your life tonight… Would you even recognize The ghost that learned too late How to apologize? #maybewe #alternative #emo #screamo #howtoapologize?