I hide it

Lyrics written by me, Instrumentals and Vocals AI Generated by SUNO Lyrics: I keep a graveyard in my bedroom Full of things I’ll never say Every broken thought I buried Still finds a way to haunt my day I got real good at changing subjects At saying, “Nah, I’m doing fine” But every joke’s a cheap distraction From the wreck I hide inside If I let you see the worst of me Would you stay or let me go? If I said I’m barely breathing Would you help me carry hope? I hide it, I hide it Right under my sleeve I need help, I need help But I can’t make myself speak What if I’m too damaged? What if I’m too deep? So I hide it, I hide it Right under my sleeve There’s a thousand unopened messages From the people I pushed away It’s not that I don’t want to answer I just don’t know what to say I know I’m good at self-destruction I know these walls are self-made scars But shame gets loud when silence hits And tells me I’m exactly what I fear I am If I dropped this mask completely Would you still look me in the eye? If I told you how dark it gets here Would you help me survive? I hide it, I hide it Right under my sleeve I need help, I need help But I can’t make myself speak What if I’m too damaged? What if I’m too deep? So I hide it, I hide it Right under my sleeve Don’t tell me how to fix it I wouldn’t know where to start I’ve spent my whole life hiding The fractures in my heart My hands are shaking holding this But I can’t let it leave Some wounds feel safer bleeding When nobody else can see I hide it, I hide it Right under my sleeve I need help, I need help But I still cannot speak Maybe I’m too broken Maybe I’m too deep So I hide it, I hide it Right under my sleeve I hide it, I hide it And swallow every plea I need help, I need help But silence feels like safety I know I need saving But I won’t hand you the key I hide it, I hide it Right under my sleeve So if you ask, I’ll say I’m okay Like I always do Then smile while I disappear Somewhere no one can get through