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have you ever been tired until you lay down and at that moment when your head hits the pillow you become wide awake and aware of everything that is wrong with the world? I've found few things more aggravating Fear of FEMA – duality‑driven, conspiratorial, indie synth / experimental music Make the art you have to make Whatever road it means you take Lyrics: every night as i try to dream i see the world fall asleep but i wait the light i know will never let my eyelids close and and and get told to leave get out told I'm wrong and cast down there is nothing that is together I'm broken and can't stand straight and I see how I am using numbness to keep away the fears the church doors are too heavy the cold has grabbed me sharply and piles of bad decisions that I'll carry for eternity and the pills of deep oblivion won't help sleep to come and i and i tied for ever to the nightmare the pressing weight as you lay there the smiling form that sits faceless appears and with groaning steps its shape draws near and i can't can't i am called unfortunate i answer to that name it has meaning i won't admit a true name is a prison all the shade thrown around turned the world black and white i am held to account for it i answer to that charge there are sins to which i admit and some are scars held deeper all the hands that drag you down to move a head's hair up and it and it and i and i can't i just can't tied for ever to the nightmare the pressing weight as you lay there the smiling form that sits faceless appears and with groaning steps its shape draws near