Letter I'll Never Send

Letter I'll Never Send #music #emo #pop #alternative Lyrics: Dear you... I rewrote this a hundred times. And I'm still not gonna send it. I drove past your old apartment yesterday Same blue curtains in the windowpane I sat there for an hour, didn't say a name I don't know who I am without your weight Mom asks if I'm sleeping, I say "yes, I am" I'm not Friends ask if I'm healing, I say "yes, I can" I can't I tell every mirror that I understand But darling, I'm a liar with a steady hand Everyone says time, time, time... But time just teaches me to lie... I'm so tired of being fine... I'm so tired... This is the letter I'll never send Where I tell you everything in the end That I loved you stupid, loved you blind Loved you knowing it would ruin mine This is the letter I'll never send Folded in the drawer where the silence lives You'll never read it, you'll never know I never learned how to let you go... I bought a yellow dress, the one you'd love Wore it to the kitchen, no one there to look up Talked to your old voicemail like you'd pick up Hung up before the beep, this is enough... I learned to make the coffee like you taught Two sugars, half cream, the way that I forgot And I drink it in the morning when it's cold Like a ritual for ghosts I never told... Everyone says time, time, time... But time just teaches me to lie... I'm so tired of being fine... Please... I'm so tired... This is the letter I'll never send Where I tell you everything in the end That I loved you stupid, loved you blind Loved you knowing it would ruin mine This is the letter I'll never send Folded in the drawer where the silence lives You'll never read it, you'll never know I never learned how to let you go... I rehearse this on my drive to work... I rehearse this in the shower until it hurts... Every word that I would say if I could find you... Every reason that you should have stayed beside me... WHY DIDN'T YOU STAY?! WHY DIDN'T YOU STAY?! I would have given everything! I would have given EVERYTHING! ...but you didn't. ...and I didn't ask you to. This is the letter I'll never send Where I tell you everything in the end That I loved you stupid, loved you blind Loved you knowing it would ruin mine... This is the letter I'll never send Folded in the drawer where the silence lives You'll never read it... You'll never know... I never learned... ...how to let you go. Anyway... I hope you're happy. I really do. Goodbye.