may

i think sometimes I get really caught up in this idea that i have to be something. ive lived a life where theres always a job to get, money to make, just keep going, keep up appearances, keep making money, more money. reality has been setting in and i no longer feel the need to be this type of person, as much as i know it would probably fix a lot of my problems, but i would die if i kept this up. no longer do i want to live to impress others when i know it doesn't matter to them in the first place. maybe there will be a day where i can accept that wish i could be there - orchid mantis