mayyro - everything is nothing

Why are you here? What do you hope to accomplish by continuing? You have already proven your worth to yourself, and those around you, which is absolutely nothing. There is nothing you have that you deserve. You have never worked hard enough, nor will you ever. The only thing you have proven to be at least somewhat decent at is wasting time and energy better spent by what grows in the dirt beneath you. In all the years you have spent using oxygen and matter to continue your existence, what do you have to show for it? Everything that has ever happened to you was deserved. People hurt you because you were meant to be hurt, to be beaten, used and discarded, as there is no better use for your disgusting flesh. You are a tool, an accessory. You exist for the benefit of others and nothing more. You are good for nothing else. You were born, you shall suffer, then you will die. That’s the way your life is. That’s the way it will always be, until the very end. When will you decide when that is? Look at you. Running and searching, trying so desperately to find your place, your home within the stars. Yet, all around you is void. There is nobody waiting for you. There is nobody searching for you. You exist for yourself, but what is there? I look at you, and I see waste. In a universe so impossibly vast, populated by billions and billions and billions… what are you? Nothing. Sink now, into the void within voids that you have created for yourself. Fill your lungs with the suffering you have earned. Cry the tears only you deserve to cry. Nobody will hear you. Nobody will come. Let your Self be swallowed into the pit. Let it become You, absorbing every meaningless atom that has been occupied by your existence. Become this, now, the Ground Beneath has better use for You than anything else. Sink, lower and lower, into the core of the Land, and finally become One with your universe. There is no greater privilege than to give yourself to the Soil, and rot.