Mirror in the Dark

[INTRO] Yeah… Guess I’m back here again. Same river, same thoughts. Different scars. [VERSE 1] I keep talkin to myself like I owe me an answer, Arguin with yesterday, askin why I still panicked. I said I’d be bigger than this little town pressure, But I still feel it squeeze when the silence get extra. I told ‘em “I’m fine,” I rehearsed it real good, But fine’s just a word you say when you misunderstood. I been workin like crazy, still feel behind, Watchin doors close slow while I swear I was on time. Everybody got advice when you almost make it, Same folks disappear when the dream get shaky. I laugh it off but it stick like burrs, Hard bein self-made when you doubt your worth. [HOOK] I’m just talkin to myself, tryna keep it together, Tryna convince my reflection we gon be better. Say I’m strong, say I’m built for the weather, But some nights I don’t believe me, never. Yeah, I’m talkin to myself, no crowd, no cheers, Just the truth in the dark and the echo of years. If I don’t hear it from me, I ain’t hearin it elsewhere, So I’m talkin to myself like somebody cares. [VERSE 2] I remember sayin “watch me,” now they watch me stall, Same eyes that ignored me wanna study the fall. I been proud and petty, both at the same damn time, Tryna draw a straight line through a crooked-ass mind. I carry old anger like it pay rent, Tell myself “let it go,” then I replay it again. I see success in flashes, like heat lightning strikes, Gone before I can grab it, swear it laugh when it hides. I love hard, think deeper than I probably should, Still apologize for things I misunderstood. If confidence loud, then doubt whisperin clear, And that voice sound a lot like everybody I fear. [HOOK] I’m just talkin to myself, tryna keep it aligned, Tryna remind my heart I ain’t runnin outta time. Say “breathe,” say “slow down,” say “you alright,” But my thoughts don’t listen late at night. Yeah, I’m talkin to myself, no lies, no spin, Just me admitin I’m human again. If I don’t say it out loud, it disappear, So I’m talkin to myself just to keep me here. [BRIDGE] Maybe I ain’t lost… Maybe I just took the long way. Maybe all this noise is proof I still care. [VERSE 3] I ain’t perfect, never claimed to be clean, But I been honest with my dirt and my dreams. I done learned some lessons only pain could teach, Some roads don’t open till you bleed a little each. I don’t need applause, I just need progress, Need peace in my chest more than fake success. If I fall again, I’ll know how to land, I been talkin to myself, now I understand. [FINAL HOOK] I was talkin to myself, now I’m listenin back, All the doubt I was feedin, I’m releasin that. Still scared, still movin, still here, still stand, Sometimes talkin to yourself is the plan. OUTRO Yeah… Ain’t crazy. Just honest. Skkrrtt.