Mothlight (Part 10)

[Intro (low, unstable hum, like pressure behind the eyes)] He followed the light Like somehow he already knew Like something in him Had nothing to lose [(faint pulse, irregular)] [Verse 1] I was steady Then not Then something else Moved through what I thought was myself There was a pull in my hands No thought No plan Just the feeling of edges Leaving command He came too close Too sure Too blind to the shift in the air And I felt it rising Not as want But as need Like something in me Was finally freed [Pre-Chorus (tight, fragmented thought)] Stop— No— Why does it feel like this— Not mine— Still mine— Still this— [Chorus (low, disoriented, internal focus)] I needed the well I needed the drop I needed the moment Where thinking would stop I needed the well To feel like it’s real Like something inside me Could finally grow I needed the well But I don’t know why Only the silence After the “why” [Post-Chorus (whispered, fractured repetition)] It’s not me It’s not me It’s not— [Verse 2] There’s a noise deep inside my head That won’t stay still Like a second heartbeat Against my will It doesn’t speak in words Just pressure and pull Like emptiness learning How to feel full I didn’t choose it That word feels wrong It feels like something That’s been here all along And I hate how calm The absence becomes When the screaming inside me Finally comes undone [Pre-Chorus 2 (breathless, collapsing logic)] If I stop— It gets louder— If I move— It gets closer— If I listen— It feels like— It’s supposed to be over— [Chorus (full but unstable, dissolving identity)] I needed the well To quiet the noise To drown out the panic I couldn’t avoid I needed the well Like a place to fall Where I wouldn’t have to Think at all I needed the well And it answered me In the shape of something I couldn’t see [Bridge (spoken, distant, dissociated clarity)] I don’t remember the moment clearly Only the shift Like something in me Let go of the lift And after that There was no before Only the feeling Of needing more Not joy Not fear Just removal Of what was here [Break (instrument drops to deep sub-bass, heartbeat-like pulse slowing)] [Final Chorus (soft, hollow, disconnected)] I needed the well To make me still To take the edge I couldn’t kill I needed the well But it needed me And now I can’t tell What I used to be I needed the well And it answered slow In a voice I don’t recognise As my own [Outro (whisper, barely present)] I didn’t mean to [(pause)] I just needed it to stop [(low resonance fades without resolution)]