Numb

Lyrics: “Tell me what you’re feeling,” you ask again, But I just shrug—I don’t know when I stopped connecting, pulled the wire— Now I watch the world from outside the fire. You write it down, nod like you see, But these walls are deeper than they seem. It’s not that I don’t want to heal— I just don’t know how to feel. I speak in metaphors, you ask for facts, But how do I explain a heart that cracks Without a sound, without a break? Just a quiet drift I can’t forsake. Doctor, tell me what’s gone wrong, I’ve been numb for far too long. My voice is clear but never heard, A patient lost behind the words. I laugh on cue, I play my role, But nothing reaches to the soul. You take my pulse, but can’t detect The part of me that disconnects. You tilt your head, “Is it always like this?” Like I’m missing something obvious. But I’ve searched inside and all I find Is distant echoes I can't rewind. Some days I fake it well enough, Smile through the social bluff. But inside it’s just this endless gray, Like someone drained the color away. You call it trauma, call it fear, Say the heart can learn to reappear. But I’ve lived so long behind this glass, I’m not sure how to let it pass. Doctor, tell me what’s gone wrong, I’ve been numb for far too long. My voice is clear but never heard, A patient lost behind the words. I laugh on cue, I play my role, But nothing reaches to the soul. You take my pulse, but can’t detect The part of me that disconnects. Can you fix what doesn’t bleed? Is there a cure for apathy? You say the numbness is a shield, But what if that’s all I’ve ever healed? Doctor, tell me what’s gone wrong, I’ve been numb for far too long. My voice is clear but never heard, A patient lost behind the words. I laugh on cue, I play my role, But nothing reaches to the soul. You take my pulse, but can’t detect The part of me that disconnects. Doctor, tell me, what’s wrong with me? Doctor, tell me, can’t you see? Doctor, fix me, or let me be, Doctor, save me, set me free.