One more sunshine

The ceiling fan was spinning like a clock that lost its way I watched the shadows stretching out to swallow up the day The silence in the hallway felt much heavier than lead A million reasons screaming why I shouldn't leave this bed I felt the coldness creeping in like winter in my bones A kingdom built of glass and dust upon a fractured throne But then I saw the dust motes dancing in a single beam A tiny spark of logic in a dark and twisted dream I reached out for the water just to feel it in my throat A simple act of breathing kept my heavy heart afloat I pulled the curtains back and let the morning hit my eyes The bravest thing I ever did was face another sunrise When every cell inside of me was begging for the end I chose to walk the path where all the broken pieces mend Yeah, I am still here standing, I am still here taking breath Choosing life a thousand times over the quiet call of death They talk of heroes charging through the fire and the smoke But they don't know the weight of words that I have never spoke They don't know the battle fought inside a quiet room To scrub away the layers of this self-inflicted gloom I put my feet upon the floor and felt the solid ground Ignoring every whisper that was trying to pull me down It wasn't grand or glorious, no medals on my chest Just choosing to participate and putting pain to rest I washed the salt from off my face and looked into the glass And promised that I'd let the hardest moments finally pass I pulled the curtains back and let the morning hit my eyes The bravest thing I ever did was face another sunrise When every cell inside of me was begging for the end I chose to walk the path where all the broken pieces mend Yeah, I am still here standing, I am still here taking breath Choosing life a thousand times over the quiet call of death It’s a quiet kind of courage, it’s a slow and steady beat It’s the victory of simply standing on your own two feet Yesterday is distant now, a ghost that’s lost its light Because I found the strength to make it through the longest night I pulled the curtains back and let the morning hit my eyes The bravest thing I ever did was face another sunrise When every cell inside of me was begging for the end I chose to walk the path where all the broken pieces mend Yeah, I am still here standing, I am still here taking breath Choosing life a thousand times over the quiet call of death