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Hello, PLEASE READ THIS. It is very important for me! My father passed away early this morning. Because of the damn corona...it felt so sudden and painful for me. Yes, we didn`t live together for a long time and he did a terrible thing to my mother and me 20 years ago, leaving us, (broke us morally and financially), he suffered from alcoholism, had a very difficult character (I`m like him in this one) and had huge debts - wich later my mom had to pay. BUT in the last 2-3 years he took up himself, found a job, stopped drinking and everything was getting better. We started communicating, we forgave and supported him. For the last 1.5 years, because of the fucking corona, I have not seen my parents ( I live in another country). A couple of weeks ago, he called and said that he feel not good, a couple days after he was already in the hospital and this damn diagnos... but later he felt good, almost recovered and was going to move to live with me when he will be discharged. Yesterday I spoke with him at 11a.m and he joked that he would definitely come and together we would cook our favorite fish according to his signature recipe. And this morning this call from his doctor ... So now I am absolutely broken and dead inside, sorry if I took your time with this empty information, but I had to write it at least somewhere. All collabs and my planned videos will be released, but with a slight delay. I need time now to put myself together again. I`ve lost a person who was very close and, no matter what he did, very beloved for me. So now I`LL TAKE A PAUSE from everything. I`M NOT SURE THAT I can hardly explain everything now, since English is not my native language and now I absolutely can not form my thoughts even in my native language. But I hope you'll understand me anyway...