perfect lie

[Verse 1] I still kiss you like I’m doing fine Still look calm when you look in my eyes Still say “I’m good” with a perfect lie Like I never learned how to break and cry Got a thousand storms under my skin Whole damn war that I never let in You touch my face and I play it cool But I’m hanging on by a thread with you [Pre-Chorus] And if my hands don’t shake If my voice don’t crack That does not mean I’m okay Baby don’t read me like that [Chorus] So hold me before I disappear Love me while I’m standing here 'Cause I won’t beg And I won’t scream I hide my pain too perfectly When I kiss you I won’t show fear Won’t let one damn tear appear But if you see through all my walls tonight Please… love me as I really am inside [Verse 2] I got good at acting like stone Even when I hate being alone You’ll never catch me falling apart I learned to lock every door in my heart And maybe I look hard to read Maybe I give you almost nothing to see But God... if I stay close tonight That’s me asking you to hold me tight [Bridge] Do not wait for me to say “save me” I never learned how to speak that way If I rest my head against your chest That’s the loudest cry I’ll ever make [Final Chorus] So hold me before I disappear Love me while I’m still right here I’m not cold I’m not strong I just got used to hiding too long When I kiss you Don’t mistake that smile For someone healing all the while 'Cause truth is baby... piece by piece I’m breaking where you cannot see