ptP, rtH.

Pressure to Pulse. Release to Heaven. ptP rtH is just a small, fragile touch from the bottom of my hollow and gray heart. In short, this talks about my mental health so far because I can't hold back the heat from the different pressure atmosphere. At first, I was able to hold everything on my own, but starting in late 2020 I felt that I was not who I really was, and I continued to struggle until this moment to find pleasure and space for me personally. I can't move wherever I am, it's hard for me to find a place where I can rest. I don't know when the last time was, I was able to lean quietly under the shade of a tree with the cool breeze that penetrated my soul. it felt worse, I kept wearing a mask wherever I was and every time I changed the subject, I also had to change the mask I was wearing. when I'm alone in the room, the dead witness who sees me crying is only my pillow and bolster. maybe I've been categorized as a crazy person because I keep talking to myself. because I don't have a place where I can share the burden that I carry from head to toe. until one day, it's time for me to leave this mortal world because it occurred to me that if I left the world, I don't need to feel sick anymore and people also won't remember me as a human being so it's a win-win for one party and the other. maybe some people think this is just a trivial matter, but I hope you understand that mental health is an important factor in the atoms of your body. it's useless if you have a lot of material but your soul is very empty. but Praise God I am very grateful to the Almighty Lord who can give a point that does not mean a point but means commas {,}. Yes, there is a continuation of the sidewalk that I've been walking on so far. so, I discouraged my intention to end my life because I believe I still have unfinished goals in this world. so, I kept going, through the hot and cold atmosphere. because I'm sure one day I will grow up in another realm. indeed, tired but that's the thread that has been woven all this time. it will be fine. that dream will continue to hold us until we are free to explore. Note: The visuals that I made are spelled out as they are and ordinary. I hope someday I can make something better than this. one more thing, i want to thank the people who have been with me and the community friends i met from alnjp, matsurrzz, geral, glovvi, ichidesu, gilss, netsu, yoegrt, raixsh, jauunat, xnchloe, widipath, kanzakilzy, retsuya, aethmez, zwnzs, lofidelity, hitxgii, suj1ko raindyfine, kensaii, peachy, yukioo, kamiiikun, conbon and others since 2020. sorry if can't mention all of them but thanks for giving me an experience Jeremy. song: https://soundcloud.com/chokerchokerchoker/diorama anime: hibike euphonium #amv #amvanime #animeedit #animeeedits #hibikeeuphonium