Putresce

I don’t remember when it started… just the shape of you in everything… I traced your outline in the static glow Fingers pressed where you don’t exist Every shadow bends the way you go Every silence tastes like this There’s a sickness in the way I breathe Every inhale drags you in Like a parasite beneath my teeth Scratching just under my skin I tried to wash you out in chemicals But you come back fluorescent Every mirror turns confessional And I confess it You’re the needle in my vein The whisper in the wire Every drop of you is pain But it keeps me wired I crawl, I beg, I drown, I tell Myself I’m in control But it’s a long way down your well And you already own my soul I hear your voice in broken tones Through the hum of dying lights Every room becomes your home Every day dissolves to night There’s a halo made of rust Hanging crooked over me I don’t love you — I just trust You’re the end I need to see I tried to cut you out in pieces But you multiply in scars Every wound just releases Who you are You’re the needle in my vein The whisper in the wire Every drop of you is pain But it keeps me wired I crawl, I beg, I drown, I tell Myself I’m in control But it’s a long way down your well And you already own my soul If I could peel you from my bones… I’d still feel you there If I could bury every trace… You’d be in the air in the air… in the air… in the air… You don’t leave You don’t fade You just dig a deeper grave You’re the needle in my brain The ghost inside the fire Every thought of you remains Climbing higher I scream, I choke, I swear, I sell What little I control But it’s a long way out of hell When you’re stitched into my soul I don’t remember who I was… before you…