Right By Your Side

"Right By Your Side" — Psalm 34:18 / Isaiah 43:2 This song is for the one holding on by something thinner than a thread. I lost my mother. My home. My job. All of it — within the same season. And for two years I have been getting back on my feet one day at a time. Some days one hour at a time. There were nights I was convinced God had forgotten me. That I had done something wrong and this was the consequence. That the silence meant absence. That the darkness meant He had moved on. He had not moved. He was right there. He had been right there the entire time — walking with me through every closed door, every sleepless night, every morning I woke up and had to decide again whether I was going to hold on one more day. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted. He saves those who are crushed in spirit. — Psalm 34:18 Not close after the grief passes. Not close once you have pulled yourself together. Close right now. In the middle of the floor. In the middle of the loss. In the middle of the season that makes no sense and has gone on longer than you thought you could survive. This song is not a performance. It is a testimony. It is what I wish someone had sung to me on the nights I almost walked away. If you have lost more than one thing at a time, if you have prayed until the words ran out and sat in the silence wondering if anyone heard. If you are on the verge of giving up and walking away, this song is for you. Don't give up. He has not forgotten your name. He has been right by your side the whole time. You are going to see it. Everything He was doing while you could not see anything. Everything He was building in the breaking. Everything He was working on your behalf in ways you could not yet understand. Hold on. Just hold on a little longer. It was worth it. You are going to see that it was worth it.