serafim - joker (audio)

https://www.instagram.com/halfawake000 https://soundcloud.com/serafimm/joker (prod greaf) https://soundcloud.com/serafimm/joker (lyrics) why do you think i cant survive im a joker a fiend who doesn't really have a life all of the years and time and you just wanted to end it and grab the knife committed treason gimme a reason I don't want nothing to do with your feelings I had a passion you made it faster now id rather be this bastard see you at the end of the world where nothing exists buried with all of my sins and shit I don't have regrets just some things i wish i'd done instead so i skip to intoxication thats my favorite medication the thoughts are so still now not so real now i feel free now everything's not a blur the realer i get the safer i feel here in this world now close your eyes and meet your maker i don't have a choice wheres my light ive been praying for days i've been praying for nights when it goes like that its hard to believe in something cross my heart and hope to die for a night where i don't have to cry did you mean to say i wont survive i'm a joker a fiend a person who doesn't really seem to have a life all of those years and time and you just wanted to end it and grab the knife committed treason gimme a reason i don't want nothing to do with your feelings honestly i'm better off wanna sleep never could you slept just fine when i was hurt it feels so good in this dirt i get that you're not here to see me in fear but coping is hard don't you get it you don't ever really get it if you did you would've been present i have a question what am i here for what is the message maybe i'll know when i don't feel less than when the fear gets lessened didn't i learn my lesson you have the nerve cant help it never return my blessings i don't need you to help me