So Over It - Anxious Avoidant

Anxious Avoidant by So Over It It’s not worth being brave I just don’t want to feel the blame That I taught myself I deserve Then blame myself for feeling worse I intentionally avoid sleep so I will avoid intentionally Only sitting with my thoughts And avoiding the things that I have lost I don’t know what I can do for you But I want nothing more Than for you to hate my guts Before you ask me what I am going through I'll ask you what is on your mind So you will stay out of mine Oh I swear I know it's not linear But I feel like I'm going backwards It’s not that I don't want to die it’s just that I also wish I was never born at all Now that I have opened up to you I will shut down And close off when you're around I want you to know me But I’m scared you’ll see What I am Or might not be I don’t know if I deserve any of this I’ll keep convincing myself that I deserve worse I know it’s not good for me but I swear it works It’s what I know for now and because of that it feels safe https://sooverit.bandcamp.com/ Recorded at Big Nice Studio Produced, Mixed, and Recorded by Chaimes Parker Mastered by Bradford Krieger Lead Vocals, Guitar, Lyrics by Jacqueline James Bass and Additional Vocals by Emmy S Drums and Additional Vocals by Lucy Coykendall