SpaZm - Talking To Myself

Welcome To SpaZm Music! Hope you enjoy the madness! Thanks to all who support, always appreciated. SpaZm - Talking To Myself [Lyrics] "I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine" "You lyin, quit tryin, sit quiet" Diet of denial, I'm defiant in the riot Mind like a mine field when i fight it One wrong step leave you cold in the silence "I'm a winner, I'm a sinner, I'm a centerfold of sickness" “Push forward, ignore it, you're more than this misstep" "Quit breathin, quit dreamin, quit seekin a quick fix" Click clack, blow the brain back, intact until truth hits Who's that talkin when the voices too loud? "That's you, that's you, that's you right now" Who's that stalkin in the thoughts I doubt? "That's you, that's you, that's you - pipe down!" Try to tame crazy, it changes shape daily Chain me, chase me, face me, break me Maybe this loss of sanity saved me Maybe I can't kill what actually made me "Face it, embrace it, you ain't basic" "Break it, erase it, you won’t make it" Same lips, same spit, same face, split head Same script, different pitch when the pain hits Maybe I'm crazy, maybe that's fine - maybe Maybe that's the only way I stay in line If I gotta go mad just to make it through the night Then I'll argue with a shadow till I see sunlight - yeah I been talkin to myself too long - too long Every little thought feel wrong - feel wrong One voice, "get over it, be strong" Other voice, "you better off gone - be gone" "If you crazy, claim it, tame it, make it art, embrace it" "If you lazy, face it, fade quick, let the darkness erase it" I'm pacing, no patience, playing both doctor and patient Rearrange the whole brain then say f*ck you to fame again Brain baked, blacked out, backseat, bad route Backtalk, backspin, backpack packed doubt Backdrop cracked, that's facts, I lash out Laugh loud, last round, mask down, maxed out Rip scripts, skip sleep, sick twist, slick grin Thick mist, quick flips, itch hit, click in One voice says "just quit, give in" Other one says "win big, dig in" Talking to myself in a cracked up mirror Trash talk back, voice gettin clearer Half of me happy I made it out bleedin Half wanna have me in ashes, not breathin One voice vicious like "fold little misfit" "Go Cold, go ghost, get a rope, slit that wrist” Other voice hissing "hold on, don't risk it" "Goal in the distance, focus, go fix this" Sick slick cycle, I'm circlin drains Same sick sins spin, surf on my brain Words whirlpool, I'm a word warplane Curse every verse then reverse that shame "Get up, get out, get over that trauma" "You bigger than the burden and the burn from your karma" "Shut up, sit down, you a permanent problem" "You a burden in a body, only dirt gonna solve it" "Just quit, just dip, just drift to the deep" "Just grit those teeth, don't give in, just breathe" "Just slip six feet, let the dirt help you sleep" "Just stick to the script, don't sink this dream" "Face that fate, don't fake that fight" "Fade, fall flat, just say goodnight" Loop that logic, lock that latch Scratch my scalp till the skin detach "Get up, get on, get over it kid" Other side "Put a hole in your lid" One hand writing out goals on the fridge Other hand wiping my name off the list Talkin to myself till my throat feel raw Back and forth, back and forth, break that jaw One say "run it up son, push on" Other one "cut it off, you better off gone" I been talkin to myself, can't hush that sound Every time I climb up, I get dragged back down "Push past pain", "Put the pill in your mouth" Whole house haunted by the voice too loud Argue in the mirror, I don't blink first If I win then I still feel sick, still hurt If I lose, that's a long black ride in the dirt Either way this debate just makes me worse I'm talkin to myself till my throat go raw One voice say "Rise", one voice say "Fall" One say "push on, you can break these walls" Other whisper "you better off gone, that's all" Talkin to myself, off the page, no help Sanity slippin off the shelf, oh well Half of me beggin to be strong, don't melt Half of me chantin that I'm better off in hell Brain in a blender, blisterin Back and forth bickerin, bitter and shiverin Pickin at the scabs of my mind, I'm fidgetin Syllables slither, I spit, I'm sizzlin Backseat brawler in my brain, he bark wild Dark child dartin down halls, heart hostile Half me hopeful, half so volatile Laugh when I snap, that's my inner crocodile "Man, you made it through the worst, just work" "Turn hurt to a verse, make the pain feel worth" Then the other one lurks like "Nah, you a curse" "Throw dirt on your name, go lay in the earth" I'm a split screen dream in a pitch black head One side bless, one side wants me dead One side said "step", other side said "sit" One side said "fight", other side said "quit" I'm caught in the crossfire, cross wired, off balance Laugh at the madness, smacked by the malice If crazy's the case that I carry in my cells Then maybe I just make peace by talkin to myself