STUPID MF

*made this a couple months ago, uploading it now cuz i was hesitant firstly im aware the song has the r slur, however, I'm referring to myself. my characters are a projection. I do not condone being ableist, Ive had to deal with ableism my whole life, this is a vent about the war in my head. there are termites in my brain all screaming at me and eachother it feels like my brain is slowly decaying and being eaten alive by thousands of insects and replaced with another host, every day my sanity is slipping further and further Ive disassociated to another realm of existence my life is crippling, I am unable to do things everybody else is, I have constant episodes, the paranoia is consuming my brain and the anxiety is like constant internal bleeding people are out to get me or harm me irl. and I get extremely angry and fustrated at my head at the fact I'm unable to properly live, this isn't living this is genuine hell. i have no life outside of the internet, its raised me since i was a little kid and taken my physical being, my soul has left my body. I still want to hold onto the hope my life will improve when I move in with someone dear to me. the hope is dwindling because the damage to my brain seems permanant but I just have to hold on for a few more years