Suji - Point In Life

Lyrics: almost 5am, i find it hard to sleep I'll crack the window, I will hear every animal sing with the wind blowing softly, rustling through the leaves admire nature as it comes alive from winter to spring the flowers grow so tall that they'll start to bloom and i just took a couple out because I'll pick them for you hoping one day you will travel here to see what's new because this bouquet is gonna die if u don't visit me soon I have my difficult times spending days with you on my mind wish this would just go away because I try to push u away why don't i feel lonely know that i hurt to see I'm an outcast one wants to be giggled at and I'll always be teased Someone, give me a valid reason on why i should not die disbelief that i'll never see a point in life on and off, feeling bad, for a second i'm fine so messed up, i do not think i'll ever resign so bipolar, i do not want u to see me like this i guarantee i'll scare u if i speak from my chest didn't mean for you to leave when u saw all of that on my wrist i'm sorry for putting u through all of this so why do u keep playing with me is it cause you get lonely in the light you think of us well it's fine because i think of us too why do i feel like this nevermind you don't care about this and if i die will u grieve will you cry will you miss me SOMEONE GIVE A VALID REASON WHY I SHOULD NOT DIE BECAUSE YOU MAKE ME WANT TO KMS AND GO AND GRAB THE KNIFE AT THE AGE WHERE I CAN'T EVER SEE A POINT IN LIFE DISBELIEF OF EVERY THING THAT I AM, OR THAT I'M WASTING MY TIME I AM SO BIPOLAR AND I DO NOT WANT YOU TO SEE ME LIKE THIS BECAUSE I GUARANTEE I WILL SCARE YOU IF I'D SPEAK FROM MY CHEST AT THE BOTTOM OF THE OCEAN WITH ALL MY REGRETS THERE IS MANY THINGS I WISH WERE GONE AND THAT I COULD RESET I HAVE STEPPED INTO THE LIGHT, DID THIS WITHOUT A GROUP NOTICING ME NOW, WHEN I AM STEADY ON THE MOVE YOU THINK IT IS OKAY TO HIT ME OUT THE BLUE I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND, OR YOUR BENEFIT TO SATISFY YOU GIVE A VALID REASON THAT YOU WANT ME DEAD IS IT EVEN SAFE TO KNOW THIS JUST MIGHT BE A TEST YOU JUST TRICK ME INTO THINKING I AM NOTHING BUT A MESS REMOVE YOUR IMAGE THAT I LONG FOR NOT TO SEE AGAIN if i can love will i end up alone, forgot spend it with someone i can fall in love my heart is dead and probably numb i miss you, my dear it feels like it has been years