There In - DaJaRi

I wrote these lyrics a while after my pops passed n I was kinda crawling out of my depression and discovering my automatic writing talent, it kinda marks the point where my writing stopped being all doom n gloom but I very much had morality still on my mind having had a few NDE's and had to come to terms with my own mortality tho I ended up pulling thru... I think this is both a cause and effect of that simultaneously. like it was in that pocket ready to go and being like sht I'm gonna make it lol like..I'm going to have to clean up all this mess. I kinda had been stumbling into support from somewhere..it sure as heck wasn't on this side, the more I pulled myself together the more backlash I got from seemingly everyone around me, each step forward was greeted like an attack by those around me, but like I said I'd found some support from the other side, it's kinda funny bc it was when I stopped fighting n just decided to tryn do as much good as I could do before I went maybe leave a few good messages n such, that it all turned around. n honestly at first I was pretty mad about it lol as having been on the other side n feeling that love n that welcome embrace n everything... I kinda just wanted yo be there.. but I figured whatever we all get there eventually, maybe I can just make it easier on myself by helping other ppl see it maybe more the way I was starting to see things. so I kinda doubled down on my writing... now I'm concentrated on trying to get more of it out there in more forms and so this is one of those ways I'm getting better at it as I go. well hope you enjoy it and it can give you some feels n help you feel like I did... like I looked at the song a lot differently when I started seeing it less as a thing I wrote n more a message TO me something to share..