To Be Enough

So, let's get real for a moment. When you see that gay person, trans person, immigrant, or person who is different in any way, this is the story you don't get told. That child you said isn't yours when they came out, the one that is forced to live a life that feels like a lie. Those people out there who turned to church for light and were turned away. As I watch people like me getting beaten, killed, maimed, tortured...my soul rips in a way that I have never felt before. 14 years have passed since I started my transition. 23 years since I came out. 30 years of knowing I was different. A lifetime spent searching for acceptance and love. Thrown away like trash by the people who say they care. Never able to live up to a standard set by people who have no idea who I truly am. This song was inspired by a recent moment. It started innocently. As I am losing weight, large shirts are too big and medium shirts are a little too small. So, I put on a compression shirt and stuffed socks in it to look like boobs. In the mirror, I broke. Is this what people see when they look at me? I watch in horror as people who say they love me sit blindly watching my right to live as the person I am being taken away. The right to medical care. Do people even care that the government is trying to erase us? I found joy, peace, happiness, love, and acceptance, the moment I stopped living a life that was not meant for me. If a single glimpse in a mirror is enough to break me down to tears, screaming "I can't live like that! Please, don't let them do that to me. I cannot keep breathing if they force me to be her." Please let this sink in. This is your neighbor, your teacher, child, friend, mother, father, sister, brother, aunt, uncle, niece, nephew, cousin...We are not just random faceless strangers. If your actions are the reason someone sits there contemplating taking their own life to escape, the victim is not the problem. Kindness costs nothing but it is enough to save one soul on the edge. Please, learn to love. Learn to love.