Too Much Me

I walk in the room Feel the weather change Every hidden ache in a stranger’s face Heart like an open window in the rain Brain like a courtroom Arguing the pain I hear what you say and the words behind Run a thousand miles through this mind of mine It’s a full-time job just to sit and breathe I’d put in a transfer If I could leave It’s too much me Too much thinking Too much truth Too much feeling I’m the first one there when your world falls through And the last one home when it’s all in ruins I can read your tells like a secret code But I still can’t find my own safe road If there’s a line to trade this heart in free I’d stand there all night Just to be less me I pull broken birds to my windowsill People who love the chase more than the heal Smile like a promise Hands like a rope I keep offering shelter Calling it hope I can’t play cool Can’t pretend I don’t care Can’t share a body if I can’t lay bare Every jagged story I never show Honest to a fault that cuts too close It’s too much me Too much thinking Too much truth Too much feeling I’m the joke at parties I never get I’m the open book that they half-read I can see your cracks from across the room But I still trip hard on my every move If there’s a door to step out quietly I’d walk through tonight Just to be less me What if this weight is a rare design A cost for a sight that can’t go blind What if these edges Sharp and strange Are the only way I’ll ever change It’s too much me Too much thinking Too much truth Too much feeling I’m the first one there when your world falls through And the last one home when it’s all in ruins I can read your tells like a secret code But I still can’t find my own safe road If every flaw’s a thread in some tapestry Could there be a world That fits this me? This is what it’s like To be miserably me Always wanting to be Someone I can’t seem to be Just to be less me