Understand Myself

Lyrics by Silone Dewin (Verse 1) Can you see the hole Ripped in my soul Everyday Is like final days When your heart Is torn apart You try to take it day by day And make your way Through the hard strife of life Daylight becomes dull Life is no longer full You look to your children to smile But only manage it for a short while Till’ your back to staring at distance Wishing for one more instant Of the life before the incident You can count how much you have lost But you can never know the cost (Chorus) Trying to understand understand myself Seeing reflections Reflections of myself glimmer of light from a mirror shows this life clearer (verse 2) You don’t see the writing on the wall And you can’t possibly know it all You’ll never understand it You can’t change it You can’t make change But change is all that remains Even when you’re bound by chains Your only one turn of the key To be free But why be free Free means no cares or worries No hard life stories Not to worry means, not to care or love To put your heart on the shelf above I go through the motions and show no emotions I use this shield to keep people out from me To not see me When I’m weak I appear strong For my whole life this has gone on There is no reason For my treason On myself Look right to left And see darkness Why is it like this? Life is a struggle to where? To be buried somewhere? Or have ashes thrown to the air? Will people remember? That I wasn’t as cold as December (Chorus) Trying to understand understand myself Seeing reflections Reflections of myself glimmer of light from a mirror shows this life clearer (Verse 3) That I was just silent in times that were hard for you That I stayed strong for you and everyone that was blue But there were times even I couldn’t hold back my tears Or to revile my fears Can you understand this? I see no bliss. That I am alone no matter how many is around That people smile when I frown People say they was down I see them as clowns They don’t know what I know And haven’t seen what I’ve seen… …standing on a mountain reaching up for the hand of salvation (Chorus) Trying to understand understand myself Seeing reflections Reflections of myself glimmer of light from a mirror shows this life clearer