What If I?

"What If I?" What if I… What if I… I overthink — I overreach Say too much — don’t say what I mean Every step — feels like a test Every choice — second-guessed I run ahead — I fall behind Try to force it — lose the line Every time I try to breathe Something pulls it back from me It’s in my head — it won’t stop Every thought — on repeat What if I try too hard — just to fail? What if I lose myself in the trail? What if I never find my way? What if I’m already too late? What if I break what I can’t repair? What if I’m just too much to bear? What if I give it everything — And still get nowhere? What if I — what if I — what if I What if I — what if I — what if I I push too far — I pull away Say I’m fine — don’t wanna stay Every word — I twist it wrong Every right — I take too long I feel it build — I feel it crack Try to move — it pulls me back Every time I start to rise I get lost inside my mind It’s too loud — can’t escape Every thought — every mistake What if I try too hard — just to fail? What if I’m stuck inside this hell? What if I never change at all? What if I’m meant to fall? What if I break before I bend? What if I lose it in the end? What if I give it everything — And still pretend? What if I — what if I — what if I What if I — what if I — what if I What if I… just stop? What if I… don’t? What if none of this is real… And I’m the one holding it still What if I try too hard — and I win? What if I break — then begin? What if I’m closer than I feel? What if this time it’s real? What if I’m more than all of this? What if I don’t have to miss? What if I’ve been everything — I said I’m not? What if I — what if I — what if I What if I — what if I — what if I What if I… What if I…