"Where have I gone" - Devoux

“My past was carved deep into my skin Before the fights, before I gave in. When I used to test my strength by crossing lines Now every thought I have is not just mine.” “There’s a weight in my chest I can’t outrun Still washing red from everything I’ve done. Gave my oaths and heart to hands I couldn’t trust Beaten and broken, taught to "Stand right back up!"” “There's an image in the mirror I resent Why does every door I try break me down again? Can I ever bring back what I've lost? Where have I gone…? Where have I gone” “I thought I was too far gone to break again Thought I was numb, and immune within. Disoriented in the fight, high on pain Till a butterfly whispered “Let me in...” I didn’t even know beauty could tear you apart Warm light, sharp lies, chaining all of my heart. I felt her poison spread through the mark And she led me straight back into the dark!” “Why have I chased those wings to the sun? One step closer to her and now I’d be gone Am I cursed, or just barely holding on? Where have I gone?” “Deep carved rules right into my spine Called it favor, an honor I wrathed Kept moving forward, numbered and blind Watching the last piece of me wither and die. They told me, “Obey, or be erased” So I burned the rulebook, just to feel safe Let the monster eat my soul and my name Then watched the world I burned in pain!” “When the fire went out, I was down on my knees Surrounded by ruins that used to be me. Then a hand on my shoulder, steady and warm A voice in the dark saying, “You're not too far gone." I thought I was hollow, beyond any grace But she didn't run when I lost all my faith. She stood in the silence, hopeful and calm And she held the parts of me worth fighting for." "I’ve been the soldier, dark, and their gun The beast they forged, the damned demon son! I’ve kneeled, I've ruled, and endlessly fought Just what else could I have I wrought? I've stood in the ruins of paths that are gone I lived as the thing they made me become! I’ve bled, I’ve broken, I’ve fallen apart Just where have I gone? Where have I gone..." "Can anyone hear me? I'm still here. Mmm yeah, I’m still here... I'm still here." Written by Devoux #devoux #alternativerock #rock #alternative #postgrunge #grunge #emotional