You‘re not Here

…oh no— it didn’t stop even after you left I thought it would fade when you walked away like it usually does but it didn’t …shit it just stayed not loud not even— just there in me I try to ignore it …push it down but it keeps coming back every time you’re gone don’t— DON’T LEAVE ME HERE …when— I DON’T FEEL LIKE ME WHEN YOU’RE NOT HERE I’M FALLING APART AND IT’S TOO CLEAR I DON’T FEEL LIKE ME WHEN YOU’RE NOT HERE I hear your voice in the quiet when there’s no one there I feel it hit in my chest like you’re still here I don’t know where I end and you begin …something’s wrong I try to replace it …erase you but it doesn’t work it just gets worse don’t— DON’T LET ME BREAK …when— I DON’T FEEL LIKE ME WHEN YOU’RE NOT HERE I’M FALLING APART AND IT’S TOO CLEAR I DON’T FEEL LIKE ME WHEN YOU’RE NOT HERE get out of my head I can’t escape EVERY PART you left in me STAYS …still here I tried to let it go …I tried I thought I’d be fine …on my own but I’m not …when— when you’re— I DON’T FEEL LIKE ME WHEN YOU’RE NOT HERE I’M FALLING APART AND IT’S TOO CLEAR THERE’S NOTHING LEFT OF WHO I WAS WITHOUT YOU I DON’T FEEL LIKE ME WHEN YOU’RE NOT HERE …not here …no— something’s wrong I feel it everywhere …still there …wait— …I didn’t lose you you’re just— …still inside me aren’t you …still—