"Absolute cinema"

뉴라니 For months now, I've waited for the right time to go through a metamorphosis I've been considering for years. 100% baldness... There's so much I want to say about this, and I'm sure many women who have done this before has said it all already. At the end of the day, this is actually such a small thing. It's just hair. It grows back. Yet, I'm painfully aware that I will be stared at, whispered about, judged for as long as I don't "look" normal. I'm already used to people staring at me because of my tattoos and weird hairstyles. It's stopped bothering me a long time ago. But this feels different. It feels like Liberation. Proof that my femininity is not tied to anything physical. It's not tied to my boobs (or lack thereof), my lack of makeup, or the way I dress. I do not want to be the object of anyone's desires because I do not want to be an object. If anyone's opinion of me changes because of a hairstyle, it would just be proof that they don't deserve to be a part of my life. What matters most is to not be normal. It's the worst thing I could ever imagine myself to be. #transformation #upgrade #bald #whelm #metamorfosis