ALMOST A GHOST

I built a home inside my silence Locked the doors, threw out the guidance If I fade, will they notice? If I scream, will they hear it? Time don’t heal, it just reminds me Of all the things I never said This ain't living, it's surviving With a ghost inside my head I don’t fuck with society It all feels like irony They sell hope like a magazine While I bleed through the in-betweens Can’t be your nice guy fantasy I'm tired of pretending peace I’m Houdini in my skin Now you see me, now I’m thin Cold blood, black heart I’ve been broken from the start Doors are locked, the lights are off And the noise won’t ever stop You're just another reason why I stay inside Another empty face that I can’t confide This has been a long time coming, I swear This has been a long time coming, I swear Every time I try to love, I break again Every time I rise, I fall like rain This has been a long time coming, I swear I’m just a ghost that’s almost there Kafka wrote me in a letter Said the world won’t get no better Thoreau whispered in the breeze "Go be alone, go plant your seeds" But even in my quiet pond The darkness drags me right back down And every mirror that I face Just shows a man that wants to drown Maybe I was never meant to fit Maybe the cracks were the only honest parts of me Maybe I was never meant to fit Maybe the cracks were the only honest parts of me SE VEIO ATE AQUI ME SIGA NA REDE SOCIAL https://www.instagram.com/ruan_gomesaff/