Done Right

Lyrics: Alarm screams like a siren in my skull Another day already feeling dull Coffee cold, same weight on my chest No one shows up, I’m the one who does the rest Dirty dishes stacked like a warning sign Promises fade every single time I keep patching holes in a sinking ship While you swear you’ll change with the same old script You say “hold on”. I’ve been holding for years You say “I will”. I’m still drowning in here If I want it done, I do it myself Break my back while you sit on the shelf I’m so damn tired, running on fumes Carrying everything, filling your shoes If I drop it all, it all hits the ground No one there when I’m breaking down I hate this weight, but I know it’s true If I want it done, it won’t be you Clock out, but I never clock off Another favor, another cost Hands shaking while I light the stove Still got a mile before I’m home You don’t see me coming apart Just the engine, not the heart I scream in silence, bite my tongue ‘Cause talking never gets shit done You say “I’ll try”, yeah, I’ve heard that before I’m too damn tired to beg anymore If I want it done, I do it myself Break my spine just to carry the hell I’m so damn tired, can’t even sleep Dragging your weight, buried too deep If I let go, everything burns Guess I’ll never get what I’ve earned I hate this truth, but I see it clear If I want it done, I’m the one still here I’m cracking like glass under pressure Held together out of sheer terror Of what would happen if I just stopped If I just let every single thing drop Would it all fall apart like I feel inside? Would you finally see what I’ve been trying to hide? Or would you stand there, empty eyed While I disappear just to survive? I’m so fucking tired Tired of being the fire That keeps this all alive While I slowly die inside No help, no change, no relief in sight Just another endless night If I want it done, I do it myself No one coming, no one else I’m past the edge, I’m past the line Giving everything that’s left of mine If I break, don’t act surprised You watched me fall a thousand times I hate this life, I hate this truth But nothing gets done unless I do.