Half Alive

Yeah I been runnin’ from the pain but it jogs in place Same thoughts in my head, yeah they all replay Tryna love right but it all went gray Now my heart got cracks like a hallway break I was all in, never halfway there Gave my soul out, now it’s barely there You said “trust me,” I was unaware Now I talk to walls like they even care Late nights, no sleep, just a blank stare Phone light glowin’ like you still there But you don’t call back, that’s the cold air And my chest feel tight like it’s no air I was buildin’ us up, you were breakin’ down Had a king mindset, now I fake a crown Tryna drown memories but I hate the sound Of your voice in my head when it ain’t around I gave you all of me, now I’m half alive You took the better parts, left the shattered side I tried to hold on but you had to slide Now I’m talkin’ to the dark like it’s by my side Heart broke, fast talk, can’t slow down Mind race, pain pace, runnin’ no sound Love gone, trust gone, what now? I was so high, now I’m so down Click-clack, tick-tock, time froze Cold nights, no lights, eyes closed Same hurt, new scars, time shows I don’t feel love, I just rhyme those Yeah I remember when you said I was “the one” Now I’m just another name that you run from Funny how the love turn numb, then undone Now I’m stuck with the damage it become I was fightin’ for us, you were losin’ grip I was drownin’ in you, you were movin’ ship All the lies you told, yeah I knew a bit But I stayed anyway, now I’m ruinin’ Myself, my health, my peace, my mind Tryna press rewind but I can’t find time Every “I love you” was a bad design Now I read between lines that were never mine And it’s crazy how fast things fall apart One minute you’re home, next you’re just a scar Now I write these songs just to play the part Of a man still breathin’ with a broken heart I gave you all of me, now I’m half alive You took the better parts, left the shattered side I tried to hold on but you had to slide Now I’m talkin’ to the dark like it’s by my side Heart broke, fast talk, can’t slow down Mind race, pain pace, runnin’ no sound Love gone, trust gone, what now? I was so high, now I’m so down Click-clack, tick-tock, time froze Cold nights, no lights, eyes closed Same hurt, new scars, time shows I don’t feel love, I just rhyme thoseYeah… I don’t even hate you… I just hate what it did to me Turned love into a memory And me… into who I had to be