HALF ALIVE

Woke up today, not sure if I slept Mirror shows a ghost of what I used to get Two nights without peace, three with no clue I move my body, but I’m not really through The one I love is a thousand miles away And I’m stuck drowning in these throwaway days If I had the guts… don’t know what I’d do But this pain’s got me split in two No light left in these tired eyes My pride is gone, my soul’s in disguise I smile on cue, it’s part of the show But inside it’s all static and low I’m half alive, half not here Screaming in silence, nobody near If I could sleep and never wake up Would anyone notice or give a fuck? Still I stay… Even if I’ve got no reason today Messages buzz, I just leave them unread It’s not hate, it’s just noise in my head I fake like I care, like I’m in the race But even breathing hurts in this place Sometimes I cry and I don’t even know Maybe from everything, maybe the cold I feel like a shadow, too broken to shine Trapped in a loop, stuck in my mind No light left in these tired eyes My pride is gone, my soul’s in disguise I smile on cue, it’s part of the show But inside it’s all static and low I’m half alive, half not here Screaming in silence, nobody near If I could sleep and never wake up Would anyone notice or give a fuck? Still I stay… Even if I’ve got no reason today Maybe this song’s just a quiet scream A silent SOS in a broken dream I don’t wanna die… But I don’t know how to live I’m half alive, half not here Screaming in silence, nobody near If I could sleep and never wake up Would anyone notice or give a fuck? Still I stay… Just trying not to fade away