I Hate This World

!Lyrics! Verse 1 When i was younger i always used to watch mom and dad, and now i have grandparents that i don't wanna be like I used to sit quiet at the kitchen chair, Trying not to mess up, trying to be aware. One time I spilled just a little bit of water, It felt like I’d ruined everything for them harder. Voices got sharp over something so small, Like I was the problem, the crack in the wall. I learned how to freeze when the tension would rise, Apologize quick with tears in my eyes. Promised myself when I finally grew, I wouldn’t become what I always knew. Pre-Chorus But anger’s a shadow that sticks like glue, And sometimes I see their pieces in me too. I’m scared of mirrors, scared of fate, Scared I’ll turn into what I hate. Chorus I hate this world, it made me cold, Turned little dreams into heavy stone. I hate this world, it never cared, Left me alone when I was scared. But I won’t let it twist my heart, I won’t let it tear me apart. Yeah, I hate this world sometimes… But I won’t let it decide mine. Verse 2 Growing up fast with a fake brave face, Smiling in public, pain out of place. They say: “You’re not nice, you’re not kind…” Like they could read every thought in my mind. Every “you’re wrong” carved in my skin, Every cold silence settling in. I watched how bitterness ages a soul, How power and pride take control. I don’t wanna live with a hardened chest, Passing down hurt like some family test. I wanna be softer, even if it breaks, Even if kindness is something I fake. Pre-Chorus Cause healing’s messy, it don’t feel fair, Trying to breathe in a heavy air. But I swear I’ll choose a different road, I’ll drop this weight I’ve always owed. Chorus I hate this world, it made me cold, Turned little dreams into heavy stone. I hate this world, it never cared, Left me alone when I was scared. But I won’t let it twist my heart, I won’t let it tear me apart. Yeah, I hate this world sometimes… But I won’t let it decide mine. Bridge Maybe I’m angry, maybe I’m bruised, Maybe I’m tired of being used. But I’m not the shouting, I’m not the blame, I’m not the fear with a different name. I’m more than the echoes inside my head, More than the things that were left unsaid. I’ll build a home that feels like light, Where love don’t scream in the middle of night. Final Chorus (Stronger) I hate this world, but I’m still here, Still fighting through every fear. I hate this world, but I still try, Still learning how to say goodbye. To all the pain that shaped my past, To every shadow that couldn’t last. Yeah, I hate this world sometimes… But I’m gonna make my own this time. Outro When I was younger, I watched and learned, Now I choose what bridges burn. I won’t be what they made of me— I’ll break the chain.