Im Still Here

Yeah… I’m still here… just not all the way I stay quiet, but my mind stay loud Lost in thoughts when no one’s around I look fine, but I check out now In a full room, still spaced out I say “I’m good” like it’s routine But it don’t mean what it should mean Feels like I’m somewhere in between What I am and what I’ve been I don’t break, I just drift off course Lose my grip, then I lose my force Every thought hits, then it’s gone before I can’t hold it anymore I don’t know when I changed like this Same face, but it don’t feel like this Every day just drifts and slips And I can’t lock it in I’m still here, but I feel halfway Fade in the night, gone in the day Talk too much but it don’t translate What I feel don’t come out straight I’m still here, but I drift away Same pain, just a different day Try to feel it, but it fades Like I’m lost in the waves I don’t feel what I used to feel Even things that used to feel real Now it all just stays still Like it lost what it used to heal I used to care, now I just watch Let it pass like it’s nonstop Stuck in a loop that won’t stop But I don’t drop It’s not pain, it’s more like space It’s not pain, it’s more like space Like I’m here but out of place Everything move out of pace And I can’t replace it I’m still here, but I feel halfway Fade in the night, gone in the day Talk too much but it don’t translate What I feel don’t come out straight I’m still here, but I drift away Same pain, just a different day Try to feel it, but it fades Like I’m lost in the wavesYeah… Still here… just not all the way in it