I've Tried

Yeah… I don't really talk about this much… But tonight… I can’t hold it in anymore. I still sleep on the same side of the bed Even though you ain't here, it's just space instead Got your picture face down on the dresser But the memories keep getting louder, not lesser People say time heals pain if you wait But time just reminds me that I'm too late Every room in this house got your ghost in it Every song on the radio got our story in it And I tried moving on, yeah I swear that I did Tried to bury the past like it never existed But the nights get quiet and the thoughts get loud And depression's the only thing stickin' around They see me smile, say I'm doing okay But they don't see the war that I'm fighting each day I keep telling myself "man you'll be alright" But I’ve been losing that argument every night I’ve tried… God knows that I’ve tried To let you go and just move on with my life I’ve cried… More nights than I can hide Trying to fix a heart that broke inside And maybe one day I'll be alright Maybe the pain will fade with time But right now I'm barely holding on… And God knows… I've tried. I remember your laugh echoing through the hall Now the silence in this house feels like a brick wall We used to dream about a future together Now I'm staring at a life that fell apart forever Was it me? Was it us? Was it everything wrong? Did the love disappear or was it gone all along? These questions spin circles inside of my brain Like a storm that keeps coming with nothing but rain I tried drinking the pain till it faded away But the bottle just made all the memories stay I tried running from thoughts that were eating me whole But depression runs faster and lives in my soul And people say “bro, you'll find someone new” But they don't understand what I lost when I lost you Cause you weren’t just love, you were home to me Now I'm just a man lost in his own memories I’ve tried… God knows that I’ve tried To let you go and just move on with my life I’ve cried… More nights than I can hide Trying to fix a heart that broke inside And maybe one day I'll be alright Maybe the pain will fade with time But right now I'm barely holding on… And God knows… I've tried. Some nights I still reach for my phone… Just to tell you about my day… Then I remember… You’re not mine anymore. And that realization… Breaks me every single time. If you ever hear this song I hope you understand I never stopped loving you, I just ran out of plans I fought for the love till my hands gave out But sometimes forever just turns into doubt And I wish I could say that I'm finally healed But these scars in my chest still feel too real So I'm writing these words with tears in my eyes Just a broken man whispering "at least I tried" Yeah… Maybe one day the pain will fade away… But until then… I'll keep telling myself the same thing every day… I tried.