Social Confliction

One of the worst feelings is not knowing who you can trust anymore. It's exhausting having to keep your guard up all the time, and it's infuriating when lowering it could easily end in betrayals. But at the same time, constant isolation can be its own kind of torment. I've had people in my life who I grew to trust, some people who I felt I couldn't fully, and others who I wish I never did. It's a complicated social minefield I sometimes struggle to navigate, and I've turned reclusive many times as a result, but all the same, it can be a lonely road to avoid being hurt. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ (Lyrics) I like people Like a gem refined I see compassion and friendship Helpful and kind I want to belong with them Ease my mind of doubt But something inside me Also says “look out” Am I thinking too simplistic? Is this just optimistic? My mind is torn Feels like I’m going insane I don’t know who to trust Are they my boon or my bane? Can’t we just get along? Or is there too much friction? How can I navigate This social confliction? I hate people Like a dark ravine I see cruelty and hatred Rude and mean I want to be rid of them They just want to see me fall But something inside me Also says “not all” Am I thinking too simplistic? Is this just pessimistic? My mind is torn Feels like I’m going insane I don’t know who to trust Are they my boon or my bane? Can’t you just leave me be? Free me from the constriction How can I navigate This social confliction? I stay on guard But it feels so cold I try to see the good But it gets me trolled This is no way to live I’m an anxious wreck Trying to understand Who needs a reality check How do I feel about people? It’s hard to say I see the best and the worst Vague and gray I don’t want to be alone Don’t want to be just a recluse But something inside me Also says “what’s the use?” Am I thinking too simplistic? Is this even realistic? My mind is torn Feels like I’m going insane I don’t know who to trust Are they my boon or my bane? What am I supposed to do To relieve this affliction? How can I navigate This social confliction? Will I succumb to Emotional eviction?