My pain

I’ve been carrying thunder in my chest for years Smiling through the silence, drowning in my fears Every little wound I learned to hide away Trying to survive another heavy day People talk like they know the road I walk But they never hear the things I never talk There’s a storm behind these tired eyes tonight Still I wake up, still I fight And maybe I’m broken in places they can’t see But I’m still standing on my feet I don’t owe the world an explanation For the way I heal, for my destination I’ve been hurting, I’ve been falling apart Still protecting every piece of my heart All this sadness living under my skin But I’m stronger than the chaos within You don’t have to understand my life I survive it every single night and day There were days I almost disappeared inside Holding back the tears and swallowing my pride Too many memories I cannot erase Too many shadows that I still face But I learned pain doesn’t make me weak Even when my voice is hard to speak I can carry scars without the shame And I don’t need permission to be changed Maybe I’m different from what they wanted me to be But I finally breathe like I’m free I don’t owe the world an explanation For the way I heal, for my destination I’ve been hurting, I’ve been falling apart Still protecting every piece of my heart All this sadness living under my skin But I’m stronger than the chaos within You don’t have to understand my life I survive it every single night and day So let them judge, let them misunderstand They never carried what I had in my hands And every scar reminds me I came through Hell and back — and I’m still true I don’t owe nobody my confession I’m still learning every painful lesson Yeah, I’m wounded, yeah, I bend sometimes But I refuse to let it steal my light All this sadness couldn’t bury me I became the person I had to be You don’t have to understand my fight It’s my soul, my pain, my life.