Twenty years

I ride my motorcycle past the edges of memory The old house sits quiet behind its closed gate Twenty years of no footsteps answering mine No light in the window, no name for my shame Everything hurts beneath the still surface The quiet grows heavier year after year Cut loose from people who once held the tether Left drifting on highways that lead nowhere forever I had to leave, I had to run They hated me, wished me gone for good A shameful stain on their perfect life All their sins laid heavy on my shoulders They made it clear they didn’t want me there And you don’t want me here I ride through summers that never quite end Miles of black pavement under tropical rain No destination feels like returning Just forward motion to outrun the pain Now I’m broken inside, can’t let anyone near Alone at the start means alone forever I kick-started the bike and opened the throttle The roar couldn’t drown out I already can’t breathe Just carried me farther from the nothing I lost Twenty years Everything hurts Twenty years It only gets worse Twenty years My skin hurts Twenty years My eyes blur Twenty years My motor's burnt Twenty years Soul is cursed Twenty years It only gets worse Twenty years I can't breathe Twenty years I can't breathe Twenty years I can't breathe... Twenty years... i can't breathe...